Reflections
November, 2021
Songs from my youth: 1992-2003
9th November, 2021
Lost love
I cried
Not tears of losing you
And the years that had seemed so special till you left
Not tears
Tears of a time with no meaning
Lost forever with your denial of what it meant to us
Not tears
Tears of feelings I’ll never recapture again
Gone with the loss of your love for me
I cried
Tears of knowing in my heart that at the end of it all
I, too, no longer cared.
10th November, 2021
It’s just me
It’s just me
singing the same old song
and repeating the words over and over again
like I love you
and I could never do without you
like I miss you
and hope we’ll be together again.
It’s just me
saying the same old words
and meaning them in my heart
like I love you
and why did you have to leave
like I miss you
and please hurry back home to me.
11th November, 2021
Transience
Follow a star
On its journey across the sky
Watch it as it twinkles
In the pale light of the moon
It never seems to tire
As it moves through the night
As though sure of its destination
But as dawn slowly breaks in
And the sun begins to rise
The light of the moon disappears
And the star fades away
As though running from the sun
Leaving us with only the memory
Of a twinkle which soon fades
Interlude
Isaiah 61:3
The Lord will bestow on us a crown of beauty instead of ashes, the oil of gladness instead of mourning, and a garment of praise instead of a spirit of despair.
12th November, 2021
It had to be you
It had to be you
who came calling
when I needed you most.
It had to be you
who stopped my tears from falling
when I thought I’d die of pain.
It had to be you
who gave me a glimpse of the rainbow
when the rain refused to stop.
It had to be you
who brought back the sunshine
in a life too long in the dark.
It had to be you, sweet Jesus
it just had to be you
who gave me back my life.
Overflowing love
Father
You fill me up to overflowing
Rock of Ages
You stand firm whenever I stumble
Footprints of my life
You direct my steps wherever I go
Eagle of my life
Beneath your wings, I find my shelter
Judge of all mankind
You reward my good deeds and reprimand the bad
Blessed Savior
You loved me, died for me, and covered my sins
Wonderful counselor
You taught me your ways when I sought your word
And when I gave, gave me more in return
And as I learnt to love you, loved me more in return
Always filling me up to overflowing
Father, I couldn’t put a lid to your love for me
Couldn’t stop my heart from thirsting for you
You fill me, Lord, as only you can
You fill me up to overflowing.
Mighty savior
You came down like the rain
Drenching me with your love
When nobody else would give it
You came down like a mighty river
Washing away my aches and pains
When I thought I’d drown in sorrow
You came down like a dove
And calmed my rebellious spirit
When my feet would have rushed me into evil
You came down and searched me o God
Tested me and purified me
And when my life is over
Sweep down on me like an eagle
And carry me to your everlasting presence
Interlude
Isaiah 43:2
When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and when you pass through the rivers, they will not sweep over you. When you walk through the fire, you will not be burned; the flames will not set you ablaze.
22nd November, 2021
Second chance
It was a sad song
It sang of our love
Which died years ago
It sang of the future
While we are trapped in the past
And it mocked us
By being so wrong
Yet sounding so right
And when it finally ended
It was singing of our past
Blending it into the future
And telling us that maybe
Just maybe
We should try again